Killing Me Softly

Come Saturday, I'll be donning my cowboy gear (hat, vest, boots and all) as part of our office's annual non-work-related gathering spiced up by gifts, prizes, costumes and special numbers (aka Christmas Party). Our group chose the cowboy motif and I know I'll be shaking in my cowboy boots, not only because I've been wearing baggy clothes all my life (therefore I'm not used to wearing tight jeans or any tight piece of clothing), but also because they asked me to SING for all our co-workers to see (Not that they're not used to it - me singing).

So there. My groupmates also chose the song for me. DESPERADO. Not bad. I sing this song ALL THE TIME. But then, there's this routine called rehearsals, and it coincided with the date when I am feeling really really low - TODAY.

Then it dawned on me. This song is a constantly recurring (constantly na recurring pa) song in the soundtrack of my life. This song is about me. This song is me. OA.

So before I become more melodramatic than my already melodramatic self, let me share with you part of the lyrics of the song that I will be singing under a bleak and warm spotlight, to the sound of a lonely guitar, infront of liquor-guzzling people, inside our dark old west saloon set, together with my cardboard horse, who, like me, has a heart that breaks as loud as a beer bottle hitting the rock floor. Sigh.

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow
Don' you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get.



boi_bitch said...

what happened to your tagboard?

anyhoo, just wanna say that i love Desperado.
and oooh, cowboy outfit. tee-hee. :)

Anonymous said...

Sing ventura highway instead...

Anonymous said...

hey! what's with the aura in here? first 'loneliness kills' then 'desperado'? .... is it because of the christmas season?

cheer up, ~vin~! santa ain't giving you presents if y'all frowning. =D even samurais celebrate christmas.


Elvin said...

boi bitch: why? what's with my tagboard? hehe. mee too. i like desperado. :-)
anonymous: good suggestion. thanks. :-D
tin: thanks ~tin~. have a really merry christmas. :-)